This week marked another milestone for Falden’s Forge: I now have over one hundred subscribers, and am immensely grateful to every one of you.
What began a little less than three months ago as a “fledgling project” has already grown into something I’m immensely proud of, and it’s been a happy flavor of stress for me in that I’ve had to figure out my branding and scrub the self-conscious “this-is-still-a-new-project” language from my about page far sooner than I expected. This is a good problem to have.
Thank you again for joining this “ragtag adventuring band.” Let’s set out again on the Road that goes ever on and on, down from the door where it began … 🎶
Specifically, I want to take a moment to look at the bigger picture, and begin to explore just why I’m here.
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Why do I love fantasy so much? What do I hope to share with others through fantastical fiction? And why does this medium, this genre specifically, help me do it?
I’m gratified to see that by asking this question, I’ve managed to generate an ongoing conversation about the value of this genre—check out
’s take on the question and ’s piece here.Just as they and others have found, it’s difficult to answer these questions without a certain amount of self-reflection. The love of a thing is innately bound up in the life and heart of the one who loves.
In other words, to explain why I love this genre and believe in its value and efficacy, I need to explain a bit about myself, and how I came to it.
For a Long Time, I Didn’t Get It
I mentioned in one my first posts that I came to the fantasy genre (and the pursuit of fiction writing) by a different road than most. It honestly wasn’t until I was in my twenties that I would have called myself a fan of the genre.
Looking back, perhaps I should have.
I read a lot of adventure books as a kid. I played Ocarina of Time and loved every second of it. The Lord of the Rings and Star Wars loomed large in the imaginations of me and my friends whenever we decided to beat each other with wiffle-ball bats.
And yet, I saw how much certain friends loved fantasy and… I didn’t share their enthusiasm. I read Harry Potter, found it fun, and then put it down, unchanged as a person (whereas some of my peers made it their whole personality1). I read some Terry Prathcett before I was old enough to get the satire or a lot of the jokes. I even read my way through all of Wheel of Time as a teenager, finishing the penultimate book just as the last one was due to release.
But I’ll be honest. There was a part of me that had internalized that “nerd” stigma, slightly embarrassed to enjoy stories that involve something as farcical as dragons or the discount-elf-species-of-the-week. It’s like I was always thinking in the back of my mind: “you’ll outgrow this, surely?”
The Past As Gateway Drug
I studied medieval history at university. That love of medieval Europe (and the ancient Mediterranean) was another early love of mine. I remember going to a library event about knights & castles when I wasn’t even old enough to read, and I still have the book that my mom bought that day because I wanted to look at the pictures.
Like a “dinosaur kid” who never outgrew the phase and ended up in paleontology, I never quite outgrew my love for the medieval and spent my undergraduate days reading things like The Táin Bó Cúailnge, the biographies of Charlemagne and Alfred the Great, and the chansons de geste. My projects included poring over monastic annals and archeological scans. When I needed an English credit, I took classes that allowed me to read Homer and Dante, only taking in “new and modern” literature (like Milton’s Paradise Lost) when absolutely necessary.
I’m the kind of guy who has a good time reading contrasting analyses about the fiscal situations of Kings Richard the Lionheart and his brother John in order to best determine who was most responsible for the collapse of Angevin continental hegemony around the turn of the thirteenth century.2
Why yes, I am fun at parties, why do you ask?
For a long time, I simply categorized my interest in fantasy as an expression of this deep love for the ancient and old. I loved Legend of Zelda because I loved the sense of adventure, running around the world with a horse, shield, and sword. I loved the Lord of the Rings movies because of the battles and castles.3
Sitting among literal stacks of books about pictorial representations of kingship, or the hyper-religious milieu of the 6th century Middle East, or the failure of Norman family structures to catch on among the Gaelic nobility … it all seemed like the maturation of my childhood imagination; a way for me to use my imagination in a way that was acceptable—acceptable to me that is.
When I Finally Got It
Fast forward to my last semester.
It was a beautiful spring. My last bits of coursework were light and unstressful. My thesis was already done, credited, and beginning to open doors for me into higher academia.4
But every single one of my friends was deep in the muck of comprehensive exams, pracitcums5, or their own thesis work.
I had time to kill, and everyone else was busy. On a lark, I decided to see if the university library had a copy of The Fellowship of the Ring.
I’d seen the movies plenty of times and I’d read The Hobbit as a kid, but as a young man I’d tried at least twice to make my way through LotR and I just kept bouncing off of it. It’s embarrassing to admit to this audience but I frankly just could not get a grasp on it as a teenager. It was like trying to climb a sheer cliff with my bare hands.
But when I opened up the book again that spring, it all just “clicked.”
Intellectually, I had the hooks and pulleys that could haul me up that cliff. I could see the heritage of the Anglo-Saxons in the Rohirrim, I could spot the shadows of Roland in the death of Boromir, I could hear the rhyme between ancient Irish myths and those of Númenor. All those hours I’d spent reading Beowulf and the Gesta Francorum suddenly made this story about elves and magic rings more nuanced, more flavorful, and just more fun.
Philosophically, the work I’d done on medieval philosophy and theology helped me see the beauty of Tolkien’s underpinning worldview in ways I hadn’t understood before.
Emotionally, I’d grown to place where dedication in small things like gardening and friendship seemed to me as heroic as the slaying of a great, black wyrm; it helped me love Samwise Gamgee more than I thought I could love any fictional character. As a twelve-year-old I couldn’t have understood the tragedy of Boromir, the melancholy of the Elves, or the allure of Saruman’s “wisdom.”
Hell, at twelve, I couldn’t even persevere through the descriptions of the landscapes. But once I’d grown up and come to love (and sorely, achingly miss) the forests of New England, I could then mourn with Treebeard the scarring of Fangorn. Once I’d seen the Grand Tetons and the Rockies as an adult, Tolkien’s prose began to sing.
It felt like Middle Earth was made for the particular desires of my own heart. It felt a home I’d never been to, but could recall from a half-remembered dream.
I’m not saying I have some enlightened insight into Tolkien’s work, and I’m not saying I understand it inherently better than anyone else. I am saying that I needed that background in medieval studies and liberal arts more broadly to help show me just how valuable myth-making could be for the human person.
Everything Clicked
Reading Tolkien that year was like a nova going off in my head. Looking back, it’s like I had blinders on. I’ve always been in love with fantasy, I just didn’t know it. Or at least, I didn’t admit it to myself.
Once it clicked, though, I knew I would never quite be the same. The things that I had always been a bit embarrassed about—for no reason and entirely inside my own self-castigating psyche—now seemed like keys to a more fulfilling life.
Seeing the depth of Tolkien’s work in light of the centuries of mythos and heuristics that came before it suddenly helped me make peace with a part of myself that I didn’t even know needed fixing.
It wasn’t just that I had a boyish fascination with swordplay or a weird obsession with defensive stonework. It was that through these facets of setting and a love of the past as “a different world,” I had always been grasping at some deeper, hidden reality: a world that somehow feels more real than our own.
I won’t get theological here, but I’ve always had an innate belief that this world is not all there is, that we are not made for just this passing life, that there are deeper forces and higher truths than we can fully grasp with our reason alone.
I believe that’s an essential piece of art. Visual art, music, and literature are all striving to articulate some truth or reveal some aspect of beauty that we cannot simply communicate without that art.
I don’t have enough time here to go into all the things I hope to communicate through my own fantasy fiction—indeed, if I could communicate all those things here, I wouldn’t need that fiction. But at this point it should come as no surprise that I find myself agreeing wholeheartedly with Tolkien’s own four-fold purpose of what he called “fairy-stories”: fantasy, recovery, escape, and consolation.
It draws us into a fantasy world, built using human reason, and then leverages aspects both realism to irrealism to recover our dulled sense of our own world. It gives us eyes to see things we otherwise might not. By helping us escape the mundanity of this world into one which more readily shows aspects of higher realities, much like powerful art or music, it provides us with consolation in our hearts to persevere and keep working towards the highest goods of love, hope, sacrifice, and selflessness.
The fantasy genre (and myth-making more broadly), has the power to show us the higher truths and deeper beauty that permeates human life, even when we ourselves are blind to it.
And once we’ve seen that beauty, it’s hard to forget, and it’s hard to walk away.
Final Thoughts
I know Tolkien’s thoughts on this subject aren’t everyone’s favorite. Tolkien was famously curmudgeonly6, and (at least privately) turned his nose up at many beloved spec-fic works, like Dune.
I certainly don’t believe all fantasy needs to try revealing “higher truths” and “consolation of heart.”
However, I do think fantasy is at its strongest when it does. Fantasy can do a lot of things: tell an entertaining story, explore cautionary tales, further a political narrative, on and on and on….
For the most part, though, other genres can do those things. And it’s true, other genres show us beauty and consolation and elevate our souls and spirits.
In time, though, I hope to better articulate what I mean here. I think there’s something innate within fantasy, as distinct from science fiction, that lends itself to this sort of “high escapism”; which gives us something we can carry out of those other worlds and back to our daily lives in order to live a more fulfilling existence while we still walk in this world.
I’ll have more essays on this, without a doubt [UPDATE: Now I do, here, and below]. For now though, I’ll leave it here.
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“We get it, you like reading and you get good grades. Now please take off that blue-and-silver scarf. It’s the middle of the summer and look ridiculous.”
Of course, even this question is a bit hilarious to me, since its a fundamentally Anglo-centric premise, framing the collapse of the patchwork Angevin ‘empire’ as something purely within the control of strong English kings as opposed to being the result of—oh I don’t know—two decades of sustained and inexorable effort on the part of … (Britannic eyes avert thy gaze) … the French!
There are no good medieval or ancient battles on the silver screen. Only ones that are less bad. Oliver Stone’s 2004 film, Alexander, does pretty well with the battles but I found it a woefully ponderous and boring narrative.
Doors I ultimately didn’t walk through…
or ‘practici’ ? Whatever.
Like I said, I felt like he was writing to me specifically.
I think this speaks a bit to all of us.
As time passed and you aligned yourself with the experiences of Tolkien you started to see more of his world through his eyes, and likely your experience as a writer lets you appreciate the intricacies of his work on a higher level too.
I can especially relate to this because of painting, I very often find something that looked mildly interesting before is now mind blowing to me, because I can read the brushstrokes or appreciate the composition.
I'm also learning that it is ok if others don't see it the same way I do. On so many levels your whole journey is very relatable to me.
I was 10 when I first read LOTR. I had loved The Hobbit and wanted more. Fellowship starts out as a clear sequel to The Hobbit, so I plowed ahead.
I can still clearly recall my first reading, and how annoyed I got at all the world building. I just wanted to know what was going to happen next, damnit!
Needless to say, I enjoyed Tolkien far, far more as a teen and adult than on my first attempt. On the other hand, my 10-year-old self grew so annoyed at The Two Towers for going away from the hobbits for an entire book! And oh, the cliffhanger at the end shocked me in a way it never did again, so there’s that.